The moment I accepted my life was a beautiful, chaotic, sometimes a little-messy-but-always-entertaining circus was the moment I felt a true release.

There's no sense in fighting the madness, but I've picked up a few tricks to keep the show going along the way.

I hope they work as well for you as they have [and still do] for me.

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my year of ACTION

my year of ACTION

Posted in circus, life, year of ACTION

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If you look at the notes in my site dashboard, you’d notice the draft of this post was opened on 1/8/16. And it saved multiple drafts over the next few hours that all had one thing in common…..

They were all blank.

Title = present.

Text = none.

Doesn’t quite fit the title, does it? Let me explain a little:

I’ve never been one to pick a word to describe my year ahead until now. On New Year’s Day, I came across Chris Brogan’s My 3 Words for 2016 and really enjoyed the concept of picking 3. My initial words were:

love – action – faith

Pretty solid, eh? I thought so as well, however one kept standing out among the crowd. Many of you would probably suspect it was the word “love” having read my posts for the past few years .. well you’ll be just as surprised as I was to realize that it wasn’t. The word that had the most meaning and draw to me wasn’t love or faith (although I credit a lot of the blessings in my life to these two words). It was ACTION.

And so I decided 2016 is my year of ACTION. Charged up with motivation, I sat down to fine tune my January Desire Map goals to ensure they lead to my year’s ultimate aims, with My Beautiful Circus being at the top. But that’s the tricky thing about getting all revved up on motivation and inspiration, though. When it comes down to the ACTION part, it can be scary as freakin hell, you hear me?! And that is exactly where I found myself on January 8, 2016 while logged in to the My Beautiful Circus dashboard: paralyzed by the thought of actually taking the ACTION.

The following day after my failed ACTION attempt, I was talking to a dear friend of mine and former colleague at lunch. While explaining what went down with my blank page scenario, her eyes lit up and she insisted that is what I should start writing about – my lack of ACTION on my year of ACTION post. That it could help not only me, but others who get caught at that final step. You know, the one that switches from talking, brainstorming and thinking to the doing? Yea, that one.

And so here I am, writing about my lack of inspired-action for my year of ACTION post, hoping that just maybe it’ll kick start you to do something today you’ve been putting off for quite some time.

Last year was quite the interesting, eye-opening, life-expanding year for Jennie B and my circus. (And that’s probably an understatement.) The epitome of “A lot can happen in a year.” I’ve learned that it’s totally A-OK to be:

  • thrown off your game
  • completely shake things up
  • have complete and unfettering faith that something that sounds crazy to others will actually work
  • forgive and try to move forward, embracing openness and vulnerability
  • achieve a long-held dream only to realize it’s no where near what you want anymore
  • fail and fail hard
  • ask people for help
  • and be unabashedly (and unapologeticaly) grateful and happy about the things in your life

And that’s just the short list of things that came to my mind for 2015! Last year was a year of learning, accepting, testing and watching. This year I’m taking more of a no-holds-bar kind of attitude. I’m going to tackle those pesky nay-sayers in my mind that hold me back from moving forward.  It’s my year of ACTION. And even if the only ACTION I take is deciding to get out of bed and face another day, I’ll know it’s a step in the right direction. *Because let’s be honest, some days that’s a triumph in itself when your circus has gone to hell in a hand basket. I’m ok with ACTIONs big and small, just as long as I’m doing and not talking.

So tell me, what’s your word(s) for this year?

Have you already started embraced them in various ways? 

I’d love to hear more about your thoughts on 2016!

Until next time, Campers..xxo,

Jennie B

A little less conversation, little more ACTION. – The King, Elvis Presley

2:22 a.m.

Posted in life


That’s what time it is right now – 2:22 a.m. on Monday, September 15th.  I’ve actually been awake since 11:40 p.m. on Sunday, September 14th, though. I can’t seem to shut off my mind tonight.  Truthfully I had no problem doing that at 9:09 p.m. when I fell asleep, but looks like the ol’ sub-c (subconscious) has different plans in store for me at the moment.  As I can’t seem to get logged in and knock out some a little work right now, I thought I’d stop back by here and send you guys a note.

First, one thousand and one thank yous for the kind welcome back words! Your emails made my day and it was like I’d never even left. I’m so looking forward to catching up with each of you and finding out what has been going on in your lives this past year and a half.  I cannot express enough gratitude to each of you on this one.

Second, I have a feeling I may have stumbled across my reasoning for coming back to the blogosphere.  It’s something I’m not quite ready to discuss just yet, but I know I will in time.  Since my return post last week there’s been a giant, running list of everything I want to write and tell you about – things I’m learning about, reading up on, doing, etc. etc.  The list ranges from what’s going on in the day job, to reiki treatments, pole dancing, exploring my finances and healing my relationship with money, embracing vulnerability, cooking, the love/hate relationship I have with the plethora of self help articles everywhere, training for my 3rd half marathon and 1st full marathon, skin care tips (cause you know I’ve got ’em), gratitude lists and so.much.more.

Thank you again for being on this journey with me and joining me under the big top.

I should probably try to get some rest before the next “show” begins in ….. oh, about 4 hours or so. [Awesome.]

Happy Monday, I hope it is the best start to a new week you have year to date!

love & magic,

jennie b

oh Sunday, Sunday

Morning, Campers!

This is where I’m writing you from right now:

sunday morning

That’s right. I’m spending a good ol’ Sunday morning in bed researching, reading, writing, and getting a few things checked off the to do list.  I don’t have any real reason to write a post, but just thought writing one would be good for me as we enter the new week.

If you’re on the site itself, you’ll notice a few changes. I updated and greatly simplified the theme. And without all the fuss, I managed to get this accomplished in under an hour. #winning Let me know what ya think!

I’m proud to say my 2012 taxes are officially FILED. Done and done. Always feels good to get those things out of the way. Besides, I have two plane tickets to purchase (nashville & dallas), so bring on the refund. #baddabing

I’m really really excited about this upcoming week. Like really excited.

My “new year resolution” was to do 1 thing every month that makes me really really happy and 1 thing that I never thought I’d do. (actually I think I may be doing both this week) And so …… I’m take Tuesday off work for a Personal Day. I haven’t done this since I started in Dermatology and it is long over due. I used to absolutely love my Personal Days off work, and now I get to finally have one.

This Wednesday is also Ash Wednesday – one of my favorite Religious days of the year – which is also the start of my favorite Religious Season of the year, Lent. I’m sure I’ll discuss this more down the road, but for now it just adds to the excitement of this week.  It also means I embark on my “spending freeze”. Since I’ve been on Clean, it’s not like I can give up a food vice, so instead, I’m giving up unnecessary spending for Lent. Now this is going to be quite difficult, but I know it will help launch me forward in my financial goals for 2013. My Sister is helping me understand all things finances and savings a bit better.  She helped me get a game plan together in just a few short phone calls! (She’s awesome like that.) So my Lent Challenge is definitely going to put me in the right direction, for sure.  (do I sound silly at how excited I am about all this, yet?)

Annnnnnnnnnnd speaking of Clean ………… today is Day 21. It is supposed to be my last day of the Clean Program. However, I made the decision last week to ADD another week to the cleanse.  That’s right. I voluntarily decided to add an additional week sans-bread, cheese, milk, 3 solid meals, etc. etc. (ding – thing I never thought I’d do) I already feel really great so far, and figure since it’ll probably be another year before I’m this “clean” – why not add on another week and knock it out of the park? Plus I found all new recipes and I’m actually getting more active in understanding the program and what it is doing for my body, which helps make everything seem so much more worth it.

It’s a pretty solid week ahead of me. And now to help get things started off well, I need to pull myself out of bed, get to cleaning and head to the grocery to stock up on Clean food for the week. Before I go, here’s a snap shot of the new flower arrangement I created yesterday to add an extra special touch to the days ~

pretty flowers


jennie b

hi, it’s me again.

I’m sure you’re surprised to see my name in your inbox or reader. To be honest I’m a little surprised I’m putting it there. It’s been a while. (almost 7 months to be exact) Many have asked (some repeatedly) why I stopped writing. I can’t really answer that question.

Well, I can but maybe at a later date and time.

Regardless, here I am back at the ssm. And while I’d rather not discuss the absence at this time, I will however mention why I’m back. It’s part of a cleanse I’m doing. It’s called the Clean Program.

Today is Day 7 (of 21) for me.

No, this isn’t some crazy water and lemon juice only situation, or a twelve step intervention over here. It’s a legit 21 day program where I eat two liquid meals a day and one solid meal a day of natural, basic foods. The goal is to push reset on my system, get rid of built up toxins and help rebuild my intestinal system. (TMI, yet??) To fully follow the program, it encourages release of emotional toxins as well. Mediation, Yoga, Exercise, and turning to a creative outlet such as art, music, writing (heyo!), or any other hobby are strongly encouraged to reap the full benefits of cleansing body and soul.

Annnnnnd that’s what lead me back to you. Hi. Again. This time I’ll be doing things a little differently. No weekly posting schedule, no facebook or twitter pages for the ssm (take a gander, they’ve already been deleted), nada. Just me and my sometimes chaotic, but always lovingly entertaining circus of a life.

Now, having said all of that, I need to go start cooking and preparing foods for my lunches this week. Clean week 2 of 3 starts tomorrow. #forabetterlife


jennie b

p.s. it feels good to be back.

“You think too much sometimes.”

Posted in lessons learned, life

Yes that is a quote. And yes, that quote was said to me. By the wisest man I’ve ever known.

I was rambling off a million and one over-analytical, hypothetical, what if‘s in a conversation which took place in my parents’ sun room during Easter Holiday in 2007. I’ve always been one to come up with crazy, off the wall stories …. I can spin ’em with the best of ’em …. but there’s a fine line between creative story telling and completely wasting energies over-thinking faux (and real) life scenarios, unravelling all the tiny details which were, could have been, or had been involved.

While I was losing complete sight at the situation at hand, my Father – the man infamous for being the first to tell a person they need to sit down and think something through – waited patiently until I paused my nonsensical ramblings to turn his head and say …… “You think too much sometimes.”

That’s it. That was the end of the conversation. And with every passing month, I catch myself learning more and more the truth of that statement. A life lesson on when your thinking gets in the way with your living wrapped up in five words and ending with a period.

Sometimes that’s all it takes.

p.s. Look at what I found after months of it missing ……

The pistol pendant is back where it belongs. And not a moment too soon!

sassy starter *fearless charms

A few Sundays ago I ran across a tweet from the Huffington Post’s Healthy Living Becoming Fearless blog (have you read the book by Arianna Huffington?) asking What’s Your ‘Fearless Charm’? Without hesitation I snapped a photo of my #fearlesscharm and posted it via Instagram and Twitter.

I started scrolling through others’ fearless charms and reading the reasons behind them. There’s so many different things that give people an extra boost of confidence or hoping shimmer of luck. Trinkets and baubles, photos and phrases. Each having a special meaning so very different from the next. Later that day when waiting for a friend to meet up for a Sunday afternoon glass of wine, I found myself people watching, making up stories about the people as per usual. With each person passing, I caught myself wondering what their fearless charm is / would be, even the reasoning behind them or where they found them. It was a nice twist on the usual game of people watching, indeed.

Do you have a fearless charm? If not …… is it time to find one?

psst … my charm made the reader slide show. yay for ele!


When you need a little more than a smile or a cup of tea to get your week in motion, the Sassy Starter will be here every Monday to get your wheels turnin’ in a classy – sassy – fabulous sort of way.


Posted in life

I’m not made of tiger blood as a certain Sheen apparently is, but I do indeed feel like throwing the #winning around lately. Remember those goals I told you about a few weeks ago? Well I’m happy to report I can officially cross two of them !

10 mile bike ride? CHECK!


Of course I made Justin stop for a photo op at the state line.

Running my first 5k since college? CHECK!


BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOM. (<—- that’s a boom of excitedment) Who doesn’t love a good overly-dramatic finish for the camera? Thanks, KG, for capturing my big moment. ha ha

And here’s a few more pictures from my trip to Connecticut. It was such a wonderful couple of days – I’m pretty sure I might still be on an emotional high from it all. I love my family.

My 80 lb early morning wake up call, Cadi.

My Sista Sista with my Precious Baby Niece and Goddaughter, Amelie. She’s the first baby I have ever willingly held in all my 28 years.

I don’t want to share too much, so that’s all for now. Just wanted to let yall know that I did indeed survive goals # 1 & 2. (still working on that # 3 but I’ve still got a few months) This past weekend I did yet another thing that shocked the ca-rap even out of me, but I’ll share that with you soon.

What can I say – life is good, my friends. Life is good.

a girl & a goal (or three-ish)

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It seems I have been a girl on a mission lately. A couple of them, actually. Three in particular.

Mission 1 – I’m flying to Connecticut this weekend to see my Sista Sista & meet her new precious baby girl, Amelie. While there I’ll be biking to Massachusetts with my brother Justin on Saturday morning. I just started riding again (and by again I mean since ohhhh about age 12) when I bought a used bike for $25 about a month ago. Now granted it’s only a 10-ish mile ride we’ll be going on, but I haven’t biked for longer than 6 1/2 miles without finding myself in quite the pain pickle. (I believe I may need a new seat.) My goal in this mission: not to fall off the bike, to make it the cafe in Mass, and to not seriously damage …. myself.

That's my bike!

Mission 2 – My practice is supporting a 5k race series out Charles Towne Landing which begins in May. I was doing my social media thing at the day job when on a wild whim I decided to sign up for the 5k on May 10th. Now that may not sound like a big deal to some of you, but for a girl who fell off the work out wagon big time in a I’m not dancing anymore and I don’t have to bust my body to be perfect in front of 60,000 people so I’m not gonna and you can’t make me  frame of mind a few years back, a 5k is a pretty big deal. (yea, umm, someone had a few issues to deal with in case you couldn’t tell) I’ve been back on the work out wagon for a year or so now and well, here’s hopin! My goal in this mission: to finish in 35 minutes …. and still be able to enjoy the Caribbean food at the after dinner. (It’s Barbados night on my selected 5k!)

my usual running path (aka my yellow brick road)

And for the big finale: I came across a DVD titled Amelie the other day at Target. Given it’s my future goddaughter’s name, I couldn’t help but pick it up. It wasn’t until I got home that I realized the entire movie just happens to be in French. (pause & cue subtitles, here) Regardless, half way into the movie I was hooked. It really is a great movie with what I imagine to be very French-like quirks. Then the epiphany (for lack of better words) struck: I’m going to FINALLY learn French so I can watch my new movie without subtitles AND be able to understand it. And I am going to do this by the end of 2012. That’s 8 months. I have 2 iphone apps to help me get there and will gladly accept applications for practice chats.  Tips, of course, are quite welcome. I took French in high school and have always wanted to be well versed in another language – so it’s looking like now is go time to get on that.

1/1/13 - I will watch you minus subtitles!

*So with all of that said – am I obsessing with the goal thing? Maybe / sorta. But since there’s two semi-short term and one long term, I think it’s okay. I know some may disagree with the idea of setting goals with all the backlash and personal ramifications if they don’t happen yadda yadda yadda, but I think it’s healthy to have a few goals swimming around out there. At least that’s my story and I’m sticking to it.

Au revoir pour le moment! ~jB