Two words, five letters, more meaning than you could ever imagine. I’ve had so many troubles with the concept of letting go for entirely too long. We’re talking about things that go back to high school, here. (I’ll do the math for you, my 10 year reunion was 3 years ago..) Issues? Present. ……but not for long.
In order to move forward you have to let go of the past. That was one of the first things I heard on January 1, 2015. I’d woken up super early that morning [with a super clear head, mind you, as I was the designated driver the evening before], and for some reason I had the strongest urge to take a yoga class. I hadn’t taken a class in a studio in over 2 years. I’m super, super picky about yoga studios because they aren’t always the most….friendly or relaxing place to visit, you know? The stars were aligning because less than half an hour later I found myself at the studio just six minutes from my house with my mat rolled out in the back corner of a full class room. The teacher had already started talking by the time I sat down, but the first sentence I caught was ‘In order to move forward you have to let go of the past.‘ Again, guys, I got the message loud and clear. *But I do so very much appreciate y’all making these messages so freakin obvious for me, because you know I can be a little stubborn sometimes! 😉
Those two words never seemed to leave my mind in the following days. Even during meditation when I would try to focus on a particular mantra, the words ‘let go’ never could seem to leave my awareness. It wasn’t until a week and a half later, when I went to my first restorative yoga class at that same studio from New Year’s Day, that it all started to make sense. And it was all thanks to this poem the teacher read during our last pose.
She just let go.
Finally, it all made sense. Now letting go of the past doesn’t necessarily mean forgetting all about it, but letting go of all the emotionally charged ….ehck….. tied to it. You make that decision to let go and even though I didn’t need permission, I felt like something, someone was saying ‘It’s ok now, Jennie Boo. Let go.‘ I felt like a giant weight had been lifted off my shoulders.
And so that, my friends, is my one and only resolution for 2015. Let go. Some days and some things are easier to let go than others, but what’s a resolution if it’s not something you gotta work on? Am I right?
Next up is the song that’s been by my side since the third week of December. Hope y’all love some Stevie as much as I do!
P.S. Check out my awesome stack of Spanish flash cards I just spent the past 45 minutes cutting up! I’m excited. Voy a hablar espanol en poco tiemp! File this under Don’t just stand there.